Hello guys and gals. I always asked how are you? Now I want to change it. How was your life? Well, for me.. I am currently changing my life to be a better and stronger person than yesterday. Wanna know why? Okay.
The past few days, my boyfriend and I are not "together" anymore. Why? Because he always have something to do with his friends. Always. It's like, there is no "me" in his life. No more "us".
All I want is just time where he treat me as his special one. Like, call me telling me that he love me or he miss me. Or at least text me. But, I guess anyone can change right? I am so upset until I cried and called one of my best buddies and told her what happened. She told me, "even if you cried like a baby, you can't change what has changed. People changed and walk from our life sometimes. We just need to accept it and focus on our life better. You know, what I think that, it's not the people you miss, it was the memory or routine that he always did to you that you miss." Hmm.. I need to say, maybe my friend was right. Maybe I miss memory rather than person. Arh! I don't know. All I want is to feel special and needed again.
I miss him. No. No. I miss the old him. The one who always told me that he love me. That always treat me like I am his special girl. Hmm. My mom said, it is time for me to forget him and focus on my life. Well, maybe my mom was right. I will change cause when someone you love might become someone you used to love, is the painful feeling. For me, I have pain and hurt enough.
#I am currently changing so if you don't hear news from me anymore..well, maybe you are one of them.